My personality.

I mean, I don’t really hate it, because it is who I am. My personality type is INFP. So, I am mostly introverted and find it hard to communicate with others.

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The question was: What do you dislike about yourself?

The answer is, my personality.

I mean, I don’t really hate it, because it is who I am.  My personality type is INFP. So,  I am mostly introverted and find it hard to communicate with others. I’ve hated myself for that for a very long time. Sometimes I still do hate it and even try to be someone who I am not.

At home I was taught to be myself, but school (social expectations) made me feel like because of my personality type I was weird, strange, unapproachable. That obviously made me even more introverted and I started to hate myself.

But the older I got, the more I learnt to love myself for who I am. I, honestly, easily become exhausted when I am in large groups of people and try to “fit in”. I hate being fake, or rather, trying too hard to be who I’m not. I sometimes envy the people who have a lot of friends and are able to talk in large groups of people. I envy how people are sometimes easily able to express themselves to anyone and everyone that they meet.

I mean, the closet friends that I have ever had are the one’s from high school. I’ve had them for four years and I still find it hard to fully trust them. I hate myself for that. But I do love my friends and they also love me for who I am.

But let’s say that the question was changed to become: What do you like about yourself?

The answer would be, my personality.

Quite indecisive, I am. I love my personality type because I am able to think things through. I don’t try too hard to fit in and when I don’t like something, I can be able to let it go. I am curious. I mean, I am learning Korean at the moment. I am one of the most curious people that I know (true story).

If I had been a different personality type, I would probably be somewhere else. I wouldn’t be studying copywriting, or thinking about travelling when I am done studying. I wouldn’t feel so obsessed with nature and the different cultures of my country and the world.

I hate my personality because it is so hard to fit in, I don’t have a lot of friends and I am easily annoyed (seriously).

I love my personality because it is who I am.

Love yourself. Don’t let others make you feel worthless. Being an introvert does not make you strange. Embrace the introvert within.

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