Fellow writers and Kdrama lovers, it is the 16th. We’re already past the halfway mark and by now I would be safe to say that we should be at 25 000 words. I mean, at least most people are.
I am not.
In the beginning I felt bad about managing to be so behind. But now, actually 10 000 words behind, I have made peace with my lack of words.
I was so hyped up in the beginning of the challenge, thinking that writing 50 0000 words would be a walk in the park. It wasn’t. If anything, there came a time where I lost over 1 500 woords, and honestly, that’s where I think my motivation faltered.
As a human being, when success seems bleak, motivation falteres and everything just starts going wrong. I was only thinking about how I was a failure to writers everywhere and to my parents. I was having a complete Kdrama dramatic moment.
But after a few days, still lagging behind, I realised that maybe I had it all wrong. Even though NaNoWriMo was encouraging us to write 50 000 words in a month, they wee not forcing us. The challenge, I believe, was not made to make us write exactly that many words, but to help us start the writing journey. Since it is such a horrifying journey for others to start.
So far I have written approcximately 15 600 and I am proud of that. It is more than I could have ever written on any other given day. Ever since NaNo started, I have been writing more or less a thousand words everyday. That is a lot.
I have archieved something that I couldn’t have a few months back. Usually I would just write when I felt like it. Now, I write even if I don’t feel like it. This creates a habit, which I will be very grateful for in the future.
NaNo also taught me to concentrate on one project, instead of trying to write ten different stories at once. That was a pain. My ways of writing are not the same in all books. Sometimes the tone has to be a specific way so that it can go well with the theme. But when I am jumping between books, the stories end up sounding the same.
So I am behind on my writing, but I have picked up a few things. And for that, I am grateful.
Maybe next year I will be on time. I doubt it though, since I’ll be even busier than I am now.
Don’t give up. You don’t have to force yourself to write 1667 words per day. You just have to write something.