So I have been MIA and I sincerely apologise. I’m thinking about ways to make this blog fun again. Also, I am leh-ay-zie.
I’ve been so busy this year and I lost all of my motivation to write. I’ve written a few short stories and a fanfiction, but that is about it. I know I can do better, but something —a force, mind you—is making it so hard for me to write and actually enjoy it.
Nowadays I am always tired. Like always, like so much so, I started to believe I was funny. I am, btw. That was just my sorry excuse for a joke (slowly moves into the corner).
I want to write again. I want to feel the happiness of finishing a novel. I want to feel the excitement and proudity (that’s not a word) of writing poetry that means something. I want to believe in myself again, because at this moment I am finding it very hard to believe that my writing is any better than it was five years ago.
It’s a terrible feeling, but hopefully I will get back to feeling good again. I will trust myself and I will trust my characters not to drop dead mid novel — because I do that sometimes.
I should stop…